Repost: First published July 2009Let’s say countless “me’s” are in a pool of water, along with other people’s “I’s.” Every one of us is waiting to be “caught.” Some chance upon a “me” of mine. Some let it go instantly, while others keep it for a while, for different purposes they have in mind. But in the end, when they’ve exhausted any use for it, they throw it away without a second glance, regret, or goodbye.
But there are some who catch those “me’s” and do not decide instantly, but WILL keep it, no matter how torn or useless it will be when a certain time comes. They just keep holding on to that “me,” able to see that, somehow, it has value. They keep on nurturing that “me,” ready to patch it up when it tears or repair it when it breaks.
These people caught that “me” with no intention of keeping it in the beginning, but kept it, because in the time they held on to that “me,” they saw that even with all its flaws and shortcomings, they saw and still see that it has its value.
Until this day, my “me’s” are still scattered everywhere. It’ll always be, until I sleep eternally, I guess. There will always be heartbreaks and goodbyes. But none of them matters as much as the love one feels towards people who see the real you—the you that will always be loved no matter how torn and tattered you are.
As I go on, there'll be meeting friends, dating people, making acquaintances and even boyfriend material that will always leave, in their constant search for “the one.” As for me, I am just waiting, having fun as long as neither side gets hurt, with a lot of love to give, when I finally chance upon his “me.”
But despite all my woes on relationships, thank you for keeping that “me,” my dearest friends and not forgetting my family. I want you to know, that your “I” will always be kept safe and loved.
I love the word Indigo. I don't know why. It sounds like a nice name. It seems sad, but I like it :) Maybe I can name my kid like that. Wait a decade or an eternity to find out XD
